we know who you are.

i still can't believe it. it still hasn't sunk in. you're not here and yet you're constantly in our thoughts and hearts. sure i've run the gamete of emotions, denial, anger, fear, frustration, and of course, it's not fair. truth be told, it's not fair and it never is. i find it difficult to form complete thoughts that don't include expletives when it comes to them, i'm jealous that they had the time with you, i'm angry for the lack of consideration and even more angry at the total cowardly acts after the fact. those people didn't know you, at least, not the real you. we know who you are, and we always will. thank you for all you extended to me, kindness and forgiveness and understanding and lots of smiles.