I’m all out of love….

For my job that is. I seriously can not take this anymore. I sent out my resume to about 7 places last night. It’s unacceptable to sit in your office and cry, out of frustration, for most of the day. It’s unacceptable to be so miserable at work you have to shut yourself in your office for fear that you’ll say the wrong thing to the wrong person. And I loose respect for my boss every day – all these little lies that she says – there is no reason to lie, not to me or anyone that you work with we are all grown ups and can handle the truth. There has always been too much work for me to do, but at least I’ve always had 40 hours to do it in and the option of OT, at this place it’s a 37.5 hour work week and no OT. So I’m at a disadvantage already loosing 2.5 hours a week to do my work and not having the option of OT to do it either. Not to mention the loss of OT has hurt my wallet too. I am even considering taking a pay cut just so I can be somewhere else and have peace of mind. I feel stuck, I cannot talk to K about any of this because she is a different person, she is not the approachable person she once was. I catch her lies all the time, little ones, big ones, really insignificant ones. I’m not sure who this person is and I am loosing respect for her daily. I am unsure where this is all going but I know that I do not want to be apart of it. So I keep asking for guidance and it is leading me away. Hopefully something will pan out.

On another note – school starts today, while I originally only was registered to take 3 classes, I signed on for a fourth. So I’m taking 12 hours, I’m a bit nervous because I’ve never done that before and it seems a bit overwhelming, but I’m SO ready to be finished with school!!!

Lastly – the half-marathon was on Sunday and I actually finished it. It only took me 311 or about 14.5 minute miles. Not the best times I’ve had…but it’s a start. I think this is the latest of my addictions!